How Our Reflections Can Continue to Haunt Us
Mirrors are a tricky thing for a lot of people. On paper, they serve a simple purpose: they are a tool we can use to see the parts of our bodies that we can’t see with the naked eye.
We can use them to get an angle on a blindside. We can use them to create a visual, but a lot of us can’t help but use them to beat ourselves down.
For many of us, this kind of self-deprecation starts at a young age. Growing up, the changes in our bodies create emotions that we don’t understand.
They create these physical symptoms that other people notice. When we are changing, our peers can be more likely to point out our differences.
Mirrors remind us of our differences. This feeling grows, and we begin to hate our reflection and our flaws. For some of us, a mirror is nothing more than a way to adjust our outfit, make-up, or hair.
For others, mirrors show nothing but blemishes. It doesn’t matter if it’s physical, mental, or emotional, there is something about mirrors that haunts us.
Even when we get through issues, get out of recovery, mirrors are still reminders of what we have done wrong. They force us to look into our own eyes, meet our own gaze, and look deep into ourselves.
Mirrors have a remarkable knack for forcing our demons out in unusual ways, reminding us of everything we have ever done wrong.
Stepping outside of our recovery programs, we have to face a lot of things that used to have a significant hold over us. Many of these things are tangible.
We can physically move them out of our lives, and we can easily escape them. What we may not be ready for is coming face-to-face with ourselves, literally.
We may have done the work to get through our darkest parts, but we still can’t face ourselves in a mirror. This is due to many reasons. We fear what we will see, knowing that what we will see won’t be good.
Living in constant fear of yourself is a hard thing to handle. You want to feel better, and you feel like you should.
After all, you just went through recovery, right? How is this still affecting you? Our personal fears are eternal, and the hatred we let fester inside of us for all those years is rooted deep in our psyche.
There is no escaping that, and we have to face the consequences of their existence.
It isn’t easy to do that, though. These are entrenched parts of ourselves, things that we cannot just get out of our minds.
At the heart of it all is the idea that we’re not good enough. Our standards for ourselves are so high that not even the best of us could reach them.
We have forgotten our humanity and the imperfections that come with it. Instead, we think we have to be the absolute best, better than everyone else around us. Accepting these imperfections and the fact that we are not ever going to be perfect is the next step. Practicing self-love is integral to self-acceptance.
There is absolutely nothing to be ashamed of in being human. Being human is part of what makes us unique. Our humanity makes us who we are, and it’s an essential part of our reflection.
We don’t have to fear mirrors as we go through life after recovery. They may remind us of our past, but that doesn’t mean we have to ignore them.
We can look at them and remember them, and use that as a way to appreciate our progress. Our reflections are not scars, they are symbols of our strength.
They are ways for us to remember the path we have taken and the obstacles we have overcome. We cannot change these things, so what is the point in running from them? Mirrors are not our enemies.
They do not hold power over us. We can look at them the way that we want to, and we can look at ourselves the way that we deserve to.
If you, or anyone you know, is struggling with anxiety or mental illness, do not hesitate to contact the team here at True Recovery. Our program, founded in 2014, is built around finding what’s best for you to overcome your addiction. Our facility is located in Newport Beach, California, with our supportive housing located close to our campus in Costa Mesa. Take advantage of the local beaches, nature preserves, and Orange County community while we fight for you. Contact us at (866) 399-6528 or [email protected]